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I need a new LJ. I hate this username.

I hate being used...but I never seem to stop it. I have no confidence too. Im thinking and I really don't know how I ended up so uncomfortable with myself. I think cause I had a ugly duckling phase..and now I am ok looking.So when i was the duckling thats when everyone crushed my self confidence. People try to help rebuild it but I seriously think the damage is done. And boys have not helped.Just always letting me 2nd. I am never number one. Just the back up plan is how I feel. Doesn't matter what they say really cause how they treat you and who they leave you for hurts more and even if its true to them it becomes this big blurry lie.

It's been more than a year since it happend.  I don't think about it anymore. And whenever anyone asks me something like What's the worst thing that has happend to you or what a guy has done. I think of that night. Or when someone asks if i got hurt and how the person did it. I just turn away and say I dont wanna talk about it. It's sickening...because the more i got hurt the more i fell. I want to find that letter I wrote describing how I felt and how I was hurt.

People sicken me sometimes. They put on such a idenity mask and you never really know if it's the truth. I admit I have done it everyone has. Cause deep down everyong really just wants to be accepted, and wanted, and loved, attractive, happy, just at peace with themselves. I think one day we can all achieve that. The only thing I am worried about it what if it happens and I don't realize it until it's gone.

I'm on Chelsea's xanga for about an hour with Trick Daddy song let's go and I keep saying im gonna change the song but it's like I'm not even listening to it.

 

I realized..Livejournal is depressing. ha. yeah so i called and im stop talking about it.

I didn't pass my permit and Im in a weird mood...kind sad and mad or bad mood...whatever. lifes lame. didnt go to school had no ride i have to go on friday, friday :(

I haven't been doing much. haven't seen my friends. and yeah sneaking off to  see jackie...catching up on homework...drinking alot of dr.pepper to stay awake...talking on the phone even though for like half a day they disconnected it...saddest moment in my pathetic life.

the end

Yeah I'm fucking updating. I don't know why. Oh yeah cause Chelsea  wants me too and I guess I wasn't informed when I became her little bitch but I guess I am. hahaha

UMMM..charter is going good. And tomorrow I am taking my permit test so wish me luck.

I need to dye my hair again. It loks really gross. and I realized my hair is getting long again. YAY...watch and then I will go and cut it all off again.

Last weekend was Kayla bday party and yeah she got trashed it was funny, it was fun except later at night when i was annoying ally. I guess another thing going down. Yeah so Kyle and Jackie showed up that was interesting.

Today,,I did nothing...what a shock. I think I'm gonna start using this again. haha yeah. Then I watched the Disney Channel...shut the fuckup./ i watched meet the fockers with the rents. now im bored.
yesturday hung out with chad at night and talked to chelsea...it was sily. my brother FINALLY came home with Charise..so we sat around/ then we went to carls jr at like midnight...came home..and blah.
ally

So today everyone is making fun of my butt. Cause I have a hole....I mean a hole in my pants...yeah..I know its there mother fuckers! but anyway....Journalism was HYSTERICAL today....OMFG....I love Chelsea Nichole and Sheena Bunny so much!!!! I'll chair ram you guys any day. hahahaha
Life is hectick...trying to avoid being sent away...and my bro and dad are supposedly comming hom tonight which bites cause they werent until like wednesday. F***ers! haha.
ok...enough update.



allyson

My god Sara just can't take a hint. I can't be friends with her anymore. She hurts me too bad. Yet she turns it around and makes me teh bad guy when im accusing no one of this. She says Ive changed that im disrespectful and don't care about friends. Thats not true. I just dont care about her. Thats why what happend happend last night. She says she doesnt want me to any more but Im at that point where I dont care I'll just tell her we didnt even if the truth is we did. He apparenlty doesnt care cause he does the opposite of everything he tells her and feels. I'm moving on and I dont want her around to hurt me or fuck things up . She makes me feel like a horrible person and that is no friend of mine. Why can't I get this point accross to her. I feel a little bad though since Im her only friend and she thinks we are still best friends. She wants a explanation yet I dont have one. Not one suitable for her. Why cant she just go away. I finally learn to support it by myslef and I dont need her anymore. None of her drama bullshit. She has made me go into this depression. Everyday is another struggle and everytime I talk to her I waana shoot myself. I dont her drama and nothing to do with her. And with him is another story. He's only good for one thing now if even that. I hate saying stuff like this. I wish someone would just take my life so there'd be none of this crap anymore.
Goodbye.
Allyson P.

So nothing has been happening. Im bored. Chelsea just stopped by and I gave her her valentines day stuff.aka a care bears coloring book and a picture i made. hmmm I love her.
I got this ring and it contiunesly blinks its pretty annoying..its was suppose to last like 2 hours but its been going for about 24. it gives me something to chew on though.
So thurday im going to see my kayla. yay. I haven't seen her in like eternity.
Valentines day wasn't so bad. Nicole came over and we hung out with Jackie, Britany, Chad, and Kelly. Then Nicole bought some stuff and then she left at like 9..*tear*
now ...nothing has happend...hopefully excitment tomorrow.
goodbye.
Allyson

Wow. So I haven't updated this thing in eternity. UM...yeah I've been hanging out with Nicole alot and have learned alot of stuff about her..but I love her...ummm...last week. i got drunk at jackies...this  week on Thursday went to her house again and stuff cause I didnt go to school. Before then...um..i had sex again...yeah big woop..I don't like having guy friends any more....they always want something more.

well bye,

allyson

I have had a great day.

but i feel guilty.

i saw kyle he came over to my house. he told me he believes sara(ex best friend) is in rehab in colorado

i am not quite sure if its true. i believe it. and i feel like..um...sad and like i wnat to cry...but i dont know why cause i hate her. but i guess somewhere deep in my heart i still love her. i hate ehr but i lover her.

i am not sure how to feel.

So tonight was pretty ok. Kayla,Krystal,Chelsea and I went to New Song church to see Clementine(lukes band) and Bloodstained Sky. I only put those two out of like the five that played cause the rest sucked moo cow balls. Chelsea went with Victoria though and then we made a adventure out of finding her. She cut her hair and she looks way pretty. She looks sceney now. haha. i made a new word yesss! haha. Basically night we stayed away from Chelseas stalker. omg is he crreepy. i am scared of him big time. yum my hair smells like yummy. haha. anyway and watching JJ(clementine) instensly. hes so goregous. lol. chels.hehe.
Then we ran outside when it was over to get away from chelseas stalker and then we say kaylas mom right away and me and kayla skipped to the car. lol. fun stuff.

The past three days kayla has slept over. It was nice having someone here so i am not so bored. but now shes gone. poo, i should have slept at her house tonight. I need to go to the libary i went and they had none of the books i need for pshcology which i am already failing and i need to do this book report that we have been working on for like 4 months and i have one week to do it...gosh darn i need that book.
So Nikki is of in monteray and i am sad. i cant do things with her on this week off.

Kayla and I are going to see Honor Wounds and Stripped Down Holywood at soma on friday. I need like 28 bucks by then. Cause freaking finally they annouced the New Years show!! yess and so we are gonna buy are tickets before the prices go whoosh up. haha.

well so there i updated. not as though it matters.
<>3 Ally

MARK THE ONES YOU'VE DONE

(x) I've Been Drunk

(x) I've Been Stoned

(x) I've Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex

(x) I've Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex

( ) I've Crashed A Friend's Car

( ) I've Been To Japan

(x) I've Been In A Taxi

( ) I've Been In Love

(x) I've Had Sex In Public

(x) I've Been Dumped

(x) I've Done Cocaine

(x) I've Shoplifted

( ) I've Been Fired

(x) I've Been In A Fist Fight

( ) I've Had Group Intercourse

( ) I've Snuck Out Of My Parent's House

( ) I've Been Tied Up

( )I've Been Caught Masturbating

(x) I've Regretted Having Sex With Someone

( ) I've Been Arrested

(x) I've Made Out With A Stranger

( ) I've Stolen Something From My Job

( ) I've Celebrated New Years In Time Square

( ) I've Gone On A Blind Date

(x) I've Lied To A Friend

( ) I've Had A Crush On A Teacher

( ) I've Celebrated Mardi-Gras In New Orleans

( ) I've Been To Europe

(x) I've Skipped School

( ) I've Slept With A Co-Worker

(x)I've Cut Myself On Purpose

( ) I've Had Sex At The Office

( ) I've Been Married

( ) I've Been Divorced

(x) I've Had Sex With More Than One Person Within The Same Week

( ) I've Posed Nude.. (Only To the mirror though)

( ) I've Killed Someone (only about 238)

(x) I've Received Scars From My Sex Partner. (haha)

( ) I've Thrown Up In A Bar

( ) I've Purposely Set A Part Of Myself On Fire (Socks Count?)

(X) I've Eaten Sushi (Discusting)

( )I've Been Snowboarding

(x) I've participated in Sexual Activities At A Friend's House

(x) I've Flashed People.=)

( ) I've Met Somebody From Online

Everything i depressing here.The rain is cool. People are pissing me off.
I am not going to underoath
and i cant do my plans for halloween.


i am planning to maybe run away this weekend...maybe...who knows..if it will actually happen.
allyson

I found this...fuck...its cool.haha



Fuck stupid girls that think they are prettier than everyone else
Fuck people who think they know everything
Fuck liars
Fuck John Stamos.....again
Fuck cheaters
Fuck people who play mind games
Fuck my ex
Fuck all my other exes too...only there were at least a couple good ones ;)
Fuck country music
Fuck rap
Fuck people who fight their pitbulls
Fuck animal hoarders
Fuck people who pretend to be your friend and then stab you in the back
Fuck Animal Planet for taking Emergency Vets off air
Fuck MTV and it's stupid dance hours- WTF is that all about anyway?
Fuck homophobes!
Fuck my step dad- because he's an ass
Fuck pens that burst and get ink all over your hands
Fuck Wendy's for changing my favorite chicken sandwhich and adding onions to it
Fuck Del Taco for not having more locations in OR....I will change that soon enough though
Fuck sell outs
Fuck people who judge you because you are not like them
Fuck underwear......no I am not wearing any right now
Fuck bras- they suck!
Fuck people who bring their babies to the movies when all the kids do is scream at the top of their lungs and make my head want to explode
Fuck working
Fuck life
Fuck guys
Fuck grapefruit juice
Fuck terrorists
Fuck laggers
FUCK PEOPLE WHO MAKES PLANS WITH YOU AND THEN LEAVE YOU WAITING FOR HOURS ON END WITH NO PHONE CALL WHEN i COULD BE OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE
Fuck guys who try to sweet talk you just to get into your pants
Fuck the Christmas on Sesame Street DVD
Fuck Tiny Planets for not putting the whole song on their site...because I love Noggin and admit to watching it reguarly
Fuck this fuck list
Fuck Michael Moore
Fuck this piece of shit computer
Fuck guys that the only thing they can say to start a conversation is "damn you look good"
Fuck rude ass bitches who think they rule the world
Fuck people who work at the McDonalds in Bremerton (cuz they fuck up the order & they are racist against my mom)
fuck gorge bush ..... hes a munkey in a mans body .... www.funnyjunk.com
Fuck liars, cheaters, racist people, and people who think their pimps
Fuck preppy bitches, people who think they are better then everyone else.
Fuck ME :)
Fuck politics!
Fuck the bullshit !
Fuck shit
Fuck workin on saturdays
Fuck stuck up fuckers
Fuck skimp shit
Fuck fat-free ranch
fuck people that don't know the difference between your and you're..their and they're...to and too...there's no reason for illiteracy...
fuck hip hop...you've sucked since 1997
fuck these new jack "hardcore" kids who don't know who the fuck the gorilla biscuits are...
fuck white leather belts...leave them shits in the 80's...
fuck plans
Fuck giving up caffiene and sticking to it. it sucks.
DT says Fuck the person that said fuck country music
fuck the fuckin fuckers
fuck iraq
fuck kerry & edwards
fuck people who bring drama to waffle house at 3 am
and that's all DT says
FUCK PEOPLE WHO SLIT TIRES!
FUCK THE POLICE! haha.
FUCK IRAQ AND ALL OUR SOLDIERS ITS TAKEN AWAY FROM US!
FUCK THE BULLSHIT!
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Fuck the Iraq and all the bullshit that they do
Fuck Fake People
Fuck the people who use you just to get things outta you
Fuck anyone who doesnt want to do this :)
Fuck Heavy Metal
Fuck Polotics since they are either for one group or people or another...why cant they just be for everyone...
Fuck cocky guys
Fuck working on the weekends
Fuck you and your mom
Fuck you and the horse you came riding on Bitch.
Fuck George W. Bush and his Emo mentality... and while we're at it.. Fuck Emo.. whiny bitches...
Fuck all you hot guys who won't fuck fat chicks
Fuck the fat chicks who complain about it
FUCK the working class, Nice peole and thoughs dumb asses that are nice just for the sake of doing good for there fellow man... YA FUCK THEM IN THERE LILY FLOWER HIPPY LOVEING ASSES... stupid bastards
Fuck the Atkins diet...in fact, Fuck diets. Fuck light and/or low carb beer. Fuck slow drivers. Fuck the St. Croix County Courthouse. Fuck Perkins. Fuck replacing headlights and changing oil. Fuck dentists. Fuck clingy people. Fuck people who go on power trips over the internet. Fuck Hudson, WI...eh...St. Croix Falls, Roberts, Somerset and River Falls on top of that. Fuck crossing guards. Fuck people who cannot handle drving in parking lots. etc. etc. etc. I could go on like this for a day or more.
Fuck Goodbye
Fuck dirty underwear!!!!! Fuck!!!
Fuck fake asshole who like to pretend nonsense...
Fuck THIS ASSHOLE for spamming one of my groups. Free iPods my ass!
Fuck guys that fuck you hard for 3 hours on the first date then tell you the next day that they're ashamed they acted that way so they don't want to see you anymore!!!Fucking stupid ass pricks!!
Fuck us GI's in Iraq.....we could us it ;)
Fuck those stupid vacuums at car washes that take your last quarters and then don't even work!
Fuck everything in life that isn't right.
Fuck bad timing
Fuck liars
Fuck drivers in Huntsville
Fuck so called friends you invite onto Myspace who don't bother joining
Fuck Microsoft
Fuck Britney fucking Spears
Fuck commercial radio
Fuck the pop charts
Fuck those with bad taste in music
Fuck sheep who follow everyone else
Fuck boring people
Fuck free to air tv
Fuck Rove McManus
Fuck commercials
Fuck buying things in a store when you're better off buying the same thing for less online
Fuck standing in line for tickets
Fuck buying new DVDs opened and handled before you by some snotty nosed kid
Fuck bad manners
Fuck impoliteness
Fuck rudeness
Fuck growing old and fat
Fuck slow drivers and tail gaters
Fuck girls that talk on their cell phones all throughout a date to people you don't even know rather than talk to you
Fuck dickheads who wear those horrid tight t-shirts that look as though someone wiped their paint brushes on them who wear fucking faded designer jeans that get worn out at the seams cause they are too fucking long for their short stocky legs and go past their heels and drag along the ground below their fucking crappy white shoes... you all fucking suck!
Fuck stuck up chicks that don't return your calls and ignore you to no ends for no fucking valid reason
Fuck so called friends that lie to you and stab you in the back
Fuck paying taxes
Fuck being fined for smoking a cigarette
Fuck being broke
Fuck driving a crappy car while your boss drives around in a Merc
Fuck having to vote for someone you don't care less about voting for
Fuck birthdays
Fuck being 30
Fuck hangovers - twice
FUck Hangovers-100X's
FUck Puking
FUck Heacache's
FUck The Rag
Fuck my boss
Fuck Split Ends
Fuck Guys that are married & think they can cheat
Fuck psycho guys
Fuck Pollen
Fuck Terrorists
Fuck Cancer
Fuck Two face son of ahhhh bitch asshole's
Fuck people who you think are you friends
Fuck people that inappreciative of what they have!
Fuck snobs
Fuck thiefs who still your shit
Fuck assholes
Fuck ex girlfriends who steal your shit and then cheat on you
Fuck FAKE ASS PEOPLE
FUCK boys who think its soooo cool to cheat!!
Fuck Fucking Fuck
Fuck the spoiled brats on Laguna Beach... that show is sooo annoying!!!
Fuck whoever started this thread !! LOL
FUCK!! JUST PLAIN OL FUCK!!!! ^_^
FUCK THE FACT THAT YOU CAN NOT TRUST ANYBODY, INSTEAD OF YOURSELF....................
FUCK U TRICK BITCHES
Fuck my landlord
FUCK people who break into your car and steal all of your music
FUCK service charges
Fuck your mall-punk. Fuck your stars. Fuck your core and your edge. Fuck your x's. Fuck your fashion. Fuck your hair. Fuck your scene. Fuck your religion and fuck your atheism. Fuck satan.. fuck him hard, he likes that. Fuck jesus, but think of satan when you do it. at least satan's not scared to stick a finger up your ass. Fuck your mom, but not your dad. Fuck someone like your dad, but better looking. Fuck.. i forgot where i was going with this.
FUCK those morons who grab my arms to see my tattoos and ask "Did that hurt?" FUCK them when I punch them and ask them the same dumb question.
Yeah! Fuck that!
Fuck crack heads who ask me for money on the street when I'm strolling my five month old around! Fuck Paris Hilton and Britney Spears! Fuck the NCDMV registration renewal process! Fuck people that take my order in a drive through window and don't speak english...then get it wrong! Fuck girls who flash their tits in bars...grow some class...and fuck small flying stinging insects...i dont like them either.
fuck prissy girls who think they are better than anyone else, fuck people with no commen sense and fuck people who think that because I am bi means i want to have sex with you, get a life and fuck work and fuck the home buying process

FUCK WHITE SUBURBANITE KIDS
fuck reperations
fuck kerry
fuck political correctness
fuck kids that wear girl pants and think they're hardcore
fuck religion
fuck yo mamma
fuck you
fuck me
fuck Jesus & the "Man"

FUCK THE BOSTON RED SOX!!!!!!!!

Fuck bi polar men (Mike Criner) and men who can't make up their mind (Todd Garner) No, I am not bitter!! OK, Maybe a little. ;)

Fuck your mom. oh wait, i already did.
ahahah!!!

fuck your ex-girlfriend who led you on for three months then broke up with you, then wants to get back together (that felt nice)
Fuck everyone who says "fuck bush."
fuck everyone who thinks im trying to be hardcore becaus i wear tight pants.
"fuck the world...hahaha" -2pac (im glad he's dead)
fuck the words people use in place of fuck
fuck trying to make it as a musician
fuck myspace because it is so addicting
fuck coming home on time
fuck not being able to not vote because you turn 18 one month two late in one of the most important elections ever
fuck everyone who says "fuck politics" because it effects all of you.
fuck those who don't know the difference between effect and affect.
fuck my depression
fuck liking someone who you think you shouldn't.
fuck thinking of things to say "fuck" about.

ok its jelli's turn....long time awaited


fuck stupid "boohoo im so emo" kids
fuck all of you who like to hurt ppl
fuck all you who say you've been hurt so you can call your self emo. YOU GUYS SUCK SO HARD AND YOU KNOW IT!
fuck the person who came up with the fuck list,
fuck my mom
fuck the guy who broke my heart ::cough::jake::cough::
fuck myspace...its so badly made..and addicting...
fuck the word FUCK
fuck little kid words like "fudge" or " frick" or "friggin"
fuck you for not commenting and making me feel like im boring
fuck stupid kids who complain that there are too many "posers"
fuck this fuck you, and you and you and you, you're cool...fuck you...im going home.
fuck tom for being such a friggin nerd.
fuck hobo's for making me cry.
fuck inconsiderate jerks who beat hobo's to a bloddy pulp just for asking for a quarter.
fuk gurls who tlk lyke dis.
fuck asians for being so scary.
fuck squirls for giving me nightmares.

fuck liars
fuck the guy who broke MY heart
fuck you
Fuck people who pretend to be your friends, fuck people who are fake, fuck those who judge, fuck those girls who are so weird they mess with your mind, fuck this girl for playing me, fuck fuck fuckity fuck. fuck everything!!!!! but seriously things could be alot worse tho oh well im a bitcher. fuck you! lol
Fuck you for judging me on my past and stupid shit you ass hole
Fuck her from being an immuture little shit grow up
Fuck just everyone who is a little immiture baby you cooter faces
Fuck the fucks that fucking post fucking 3484757373 fucking bulletins fuck you lame fucks !!
FUCK LAME ASS GUYS @!!!
fuck me.....hard :-D
FUCK all my ex-girlfriends...damn them
FUCK you
FUCK narrowminded, stupid, dumb, mean people.
FUCK pigeons and raisins
FUCK ALL THESE fucken tears i cry all for no god damn mother fucken reason! fuck boys! fuck girls! fuck me!!!! fuck you!
(BRENDA)-F**K people that break promises
*KIM*-Fuck stupid mean people who think there better then everyone!
**RUDY**-FUCK ALL U PEOPLE THAT THINK UR BETTER THAN EVERONE ELSE AND CHEATING GIRLS,, I DESPIE THEM....
<> FUCK: BusH, HaTeRs, THe SeT NORMs oF sOciEtY, StuCk uP BitChEs, TraFFic, The LiL ASs ParKinG LOTs hEre At PePPErdiNE, PePPerDinEs Cafe fOOd, ThE PersON tHAt PULLed THe Fire aLaRm At 12aM LaSt WeeK, PUBLIc SafEtY, RacisM, IGNOraNce, ProCrastinatioN, the gas prices, n... i think thats it for NOW!..lol ;)
|FUCK| the PAST .....

KeLLiE...and mines probly gna be long
FUCK stupid girls and our childish drama
FUCK my ex boyfriend, for making me terrified to ever fall in love again
FUCK my so called frieds who cant understand where i come from
FUCK everybody that hates on me
FUCK everybody that i hate on
FUCK you, for being on his phone for being on his mind, and for being in his heart and not me
FUCK the fat bitch who stole my walleT used my credit card and left me backd up in payments with no money...who made me bitter
FUCK the drama @ regal, can we all just grow the fuck up
FUCK nor cal, for saying HELLA, and being way behind LA and...
FUCK turlock, for having my gay school be in the gayness of norcal
FUCK the person who jackd my car radio this summer when i had it
FUCK burger king and del taco and RANCH DRESSING for making us fat
FUCK me, for trying to pimp it this summer, and losing the only guy who might of actually cared
FUCK la salle, and all the kids in it
FUCK barbie...she always made me feel fat :)
FUCK my ghetto ass phone, and FUCK the guy who broke my flip phone
FUCK text messeging it makes my phone bills so high
FUCK getting paid once a month when im broke now!
FUCK not being able to shop every weekend and not being able to sleep in my own bed
FUCK him because althought im terrified to fall in love again, im scared that i might have
FUCK the guy that influences him, making him fall outta love with me
FUCK the dark and me being scared of it
FUCK chukie and beetlejuice for giving me nightmears
FUCK not having a tv in my room
FUCK everybody that isnt me
FUCK the GIANTS!!
FUCK everyone that doesn't like me, my ex, and haterz, n stupid drivers on the road
FUCK The Haters (Men & Women) who have a problem with light skin brothers with nice eyes!!
FUCK The doctors who KILLED my daughters mother!!
FUCK My neighbors who call the police when Im having a party!!
FUCK These TRICKS who cheat on there husbands w/co-workers
FUCK ALL the drama queens who DON'T mind there buisness!!!
FUCK all the fuckers out there who own businesses that won't hire my boyfriend cause he is too tall or too built or too whatever... just fuckin hire him already
FUCK as many girls as possible before you die.. hah
fuck hypocrites
fuck backstabbers
fuck people that don't return phone calls or e-mails
fuck that bitch from the ring
fuck living with strangers away from home
fuck people that make a move on me as soon as my boyfriend's not around
fuck two-faced people
fuck the RA's in my tower
fuck homophobes
fuck people that give a shit about what you wear
FUCK caring way too much and having it bite you in the ass.
Fuck all you jealous haters
FUCK LOVE!!
fuck moms
fuck rednecks
fuck not haveing a car
fuck tests
fuck fucks
FUCK YOUR MOM....i know i did ;)
FUCK THE STUPID CUNTS THAT I WORK WITH AND THE SHITTY CLOTHES THAT THEY WEAR.
Fuck That Childish Prick Who Called Me A Slut
Fuck wallnuts XD
Fuck racism and drug users... oh! and the light, fuck I hate the light! oh and the smell of lemons
FUCK boys that say they love you and then makeout with all of your friends.
Fuck Tyler
Fuck having to live so far away from the person I <3 most.
FUCK LOVE!!!
FUCK girls. they are bitches. well a lot of them are. <3
FUCK the stupid dumbasses that think "emo" is crying about being dumped by your girlfriend
Fuck the stupid borderhoppers that come into the US and get free medical shit and special treatment for breaking the law.
Fuck friends that dont hang out with you for a year because they decided to get religous and think that u were like the devil.
FUCK girls that try to make you feel bad by crying
Fuck white kids and marines that think they are gangstas
fuck the mexicans that say they hate the US and love Mexico and yet they stay here and have like 8 kids each.
Fuck MTV for ruining good music
FUCK FUSE for becoming another shitty channel that plays only HIP-Hop
FUCK Hip-Hop
Fuck poor ppl that hate anyone with more money because they are more successful
Fuck the punkers that think having Anarchy would be so great.
Fuck hitler and Stalin
Fuck the people that are supposed to be your friends and make fun of you behind your back and exclude you
Fuck HOMEWORK
Fuck going to school and being taught to not become educated, but to score better on the shitty mandatory tests.
Fuck Tom the myspace man.


Fuck you
Allyson

Sunday was fun. I went to the Casualties with Kayla and yum Clit 45 they were good...everyone says they suck live but they were pretty goo to me..then again what do I know.We saw Alex and all of them there and Alex got mad at us for not saying hello. Then we ran into Molly and Gabe.So we hung with Molly while Gabe talked to ppl and shit. And then we got a ride home with them and Niko. It was so funny and In N Out. I like Molly shes cool. Gosh I am jealous though she is so pretty. But yeah it was fun and then we went home and almost got caught lying to kaylas mom cause gabe honked the horn at us when we were walking up to kaylas...and her moms like tutu doesnt honk the horn..and yeah so kayla said stuff.But yeah I had fun.

Today...I am confused.

love

Allyson

I am sad,and I am mad.I need money.But im nothing but a poor fool.I saw Jenny and she looks happy.She works at Baskin Robins in ghetto ghetto oceanside.And shes back with her boyfriend and doesnt talk to Joe.She such a sweet person.Really.A tru heart.I like her alot.I wish we were friends or closer as friends.whatever.

She went home and shes not in trouble.But she misses her boyfriend and she says she will call me tonight but I have a feeling she wont and yea..i dont remeber.

I talk to Becky for like a hour and a half.It was good but I was full of energy so I felt like I kept interupting her.Im sorry if i did.I miss her.So yes I must go see heron saturday.I will beg my mom..oh no wait...that the 1st...oh shit.

love,allyson

so people have been telling me i remind them of Bettie Page..at first I didnt know who that was...so I looked her up...I think shes beautiful..even if people are saying I resemble a pin-up girl from the 50s. I think its hot.

school was ok.Journalism was overwhelming yet fun.I dont know if I should take on being tiffanys editor...im scared...i dont wanna fail everyone.:( what should I do?

<3 allyson

Have I mention this week sucks?

Im tired of crying and feeling these tears.


allyson

nicole...

wow avocado managed to smile even when it was a bad day..good nicole!

the delicious taste of moutain dew slurpees :D

^kayla looks so pretty..and chels is just not paying attention^

thats cool..its all red and stuff

jessica..and behind her the blonde dude w/long hair..that is 7th star..sighs

i look crazed

 

(refer down) DUDE ..my friends are so hardcore.....so hardcore you cant even handle it...this is how we do it..gangsta style

 kayla and chelsea....oh so cute...it looks like something we do in kindergarden haha

your welcome

bye

<333ally

So yes...Street Scene is tomorrow..and Saturday and I get to go to both.woot!

funniest thing today:tunrivitchies calss me and nicole woking on project

Kayla(another one):Whats a bank holiday?

Nicole:its were uh..all the banks take a holiday and get the day off.

hahahahaha you had to be there.I spited a lot today..when i talked not on purpose.I spit all over me and nicoles poster board.hahaha..she was laughing so hard.

Then I was trying to ask Luke a question and he came over to us like tthree times so I could ask him the questiona dn I kept cracking up so hard and so did nicole..bad thing we kept getting into trouble from ms.tunritvitchie,..after schol nicole tried to take a picture of him for kayla but it came out all fuzzy.So I got to ask him my question.

me:yeah so can i ask u that question now?

luke:yeah sure

me:uh ok but its kinda personal

luke:uh ok

me:*laughing*how do you fit your balls in your pants

luke:*smiles laughs alittle* I move them around till they are in the middle and they are all suqished..*laughs*

me:hahahaha ok....thanks bye

luke:later

hhahahahahahahahah god i could barley talk i was laughing so hard..there chelsea i got kellys answer for you.

<33333 allyson